January 2, 2018
Verse of the Day:
“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled neither let it be fearful.’
On December 16, 2017, My husband now was on leave from the military for two weeks so we could get married and spend the holidays with the family. The two weeks went great and everything worked out well it was sad to see him go back but now we are married and it made everything a whole lot easier.
Today we experienced a struggle with money cause when you’re in the military you get money taken out of your paycheck for the DEFAC which is a place where you can go and eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner every day. Well when you’re married you have more benefits you get a housing allowance and you get health insurance for the both of you and you get extra money when you are married. God spoke to me this morning because since its the new year I began some of my new year’s resolutions. Which is read the verse of the day and do a bible study every night before bed, I didn’t read the verse of the day this morning because I felt as if God wanted to wait and read it with my husband. Sure enough, the verse was what he was going through at the moment.
We are sure that God has a plan for our lives and he has created a life of living we are grateful and blessed to be married and to have God has the center of our relationship.
So take time our you day to glorify him and give him the grace and let your life be peaceful and your heart not be troubled or fearful.
“Humble yourself before the Lord and he will lift you up.” ~James 4:10
God wants us to be humble and when you are humble you need to be grateful and thankful for the things you have been blessed with and allow yourself to grow in many ways and in everyday life and your attitude on the things that we learn.
The meaning of HUMILITY!
“H-Honoring God above yourself
“U- Understanding your need for grace
“M-Mourning over you sin
“I-Illuminating God’s glory
“L-Looking for ways to serve others
“I-Ignoring your pride and Satan’s lies
“T-Trusting God’s plan over your own
“Y-Yearning to worship.
As Christians, we are taught to not worry about other mistakes. 1 Thessalonians 4:11 says “Aspire to live a quiet life, to mind your own affairs and to work with your hands.”
We are told to help people in need and not judge them or change them but lead them and allow them to come to God and then grow. We are supposed to be uplifters for non-Christians and even Christians we have lost who they are to the world.
When we lead people who are willing to seek God and the people that lead them are people who are exalted. Luke 14:11 “For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.” God wants us to not be selfish uncaring unloved he was us to be leaders and to consider others better than ourselves in Phillippians 2:3 “Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit but in humility consider others better than yourselves.” I have been a Christian for 6 years and I love the women I have become and I know I’m not perfect but I am a Christian who has values in being humble and being grateful for the things I have been blessed with and the people I have been blessed with.
Instead of trying to prove that someone is better than another or if some jobs are better than other or if you are saying this religion is better than another or if a church is a better than another. Be Humble by allowing others peoples decisions to not affect your life. For you to focus on your attitude and the life you live.
When we are younger we are asked what we want to be when we are older as kids we say fire fighter, doctor. once we get older we get asked again and it our junior or senior year in high school and we have no idea what to say because we either have not found out who we want to be. Also, we have people who don’t know what you want to be because your parents or someone you love wants you to be something else.
But the best thing to do when you find what you want to do. I have wanted to a veterinarian my ever since I was a little kid. I was told by many people that it wasn’t a good enough job and that I need to be something other than that because it was not a well-paying job.
I then told everyone as the years went on that I wanted to become a nurse. But now that I am an adult and I want to live my life the way I have wanted to for a long time. Becoming a vet is me and who I am and what I wanted to be for the rest of my life. As a Christian, I want to be the person and the God wants me to be and as a vet, I can teach people about God.
“Birth Marks, Tattoos, stretch marks bruises, scars, and freckles tell stories… you’re born blank as a paper and life paints on you”
When you are born you’re a clean from mistakes and problems, as time goes on you make mistakes but those mistakes you make as you get older you will learn from them.
But some of the mistakes you will never be able to over come them because they will take over you for the rest of your life and it can cause distrust and it can also cause disrespect and dishonesty. When people make mistakes and you do ask to be forgiven for the mistakes you have been given the Lord has a plan for your mistakes and when you don’t ask God to come into your life you will have more problems in your life than ever because with him not being the center of your life and the center of your life he will also guide you on the path that for your life.
So allow him to work in your life and we are human so don’t allow things of this world that you love or like affect your Christian spirit just because you’re a Christian doesn’t mean you cant have a tattoo or a piercing because they tell a story. There are hundreds of people who are Christians and have tattoos and they live their life for the Lord. No matter what happens God will be here on your side and guide you to be there for you. When you fall he will be there to pick you up and lead you in the right direction but sometimes since we are humans we will choose the wrong path because of it easier and we know we come upon hard times and troubles no matter what happens.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me Philippians 4:13
Jeremiah 6:14 says it another way, “You cannot heal a wound by saying it’s not there.”
I was a victim of feeling unloved and not worthy of anything as a young girl growing up with out a dad and my mom being a single parent. Living with stealing and hanging out with the wrong kind of people and having no control over your life because the devil has completely taken control over you and it. I never once in my life did I think I had a chance at a change I thought I would never become something I always thought I would be unloved, alone, Sad, depressed, angry, afraid, unaccomplished and ugly.
I never thought I would have anyone to love or anyone to love me and I believed that I would be doing drugs and drinking alcohol and sleeping around and stealing. Also continuing to follow what others do and not be comfortable with who I am and for me to not be who I am and express myself to the world and show the women God wants me to be. I suffered for many years with self-esteem issues depression and never have told people all the things that have gone on in my life because there are thing that happened to me that some people would never believe but I have made peace with it because I have God and he is all I need to overcome my past and forgiveness has played a huge role and some many people like my family members never believe anything and they are so stuck on what other people tell them about me because no matter what they will never trust me because I had a problem with lying. It has been a huge thing for me and I have asked God to heal me I’m not saying I am perfect and that I am working really hard to do better.
God has made a huge change in my life and he has given me so many blessings he has allowed me to complete high school and work towards getting my CNA license and go to school to become a nurse. He has also brought the man I have prayed for my whole life to marry and have a family with. He has also blessed me with a wonderful family in law who loves me and I love them and I have never had the best relationship with my real family and I am so thankful for my soon to be in laws and sister in law. I hope to have relationship with my birth family but that timing is not right.
Proverbs 31:25 “She is clothed in strength in dignity and laughs without fear of the future.”
Love is a the most used word in the english language and no one really knows what the “damn” word mean and I am honesty tired of using the word myself I have messed up all of the relationship I have been in and I don’t know why and it is so hard for me to trust anyone and feel like their going to be true to me how to I change that I know I’m only 17 but I want to be in love with the man of my dreams and I just lost him and I don’t know if I will ever have him back again God please help me I need your love your mercy and your grace I need you help me to become a better Christian women and I wanted to be there for my future husband and I want to love him and do things for him that I have never been able to do for anyone ever. I want to give him children and make him smile make him happy and make him be the one for me and I also want to be the person he can talk to I want him to know that I am always here for him and I want him to feel at home all the time and I want him to feel appreciated for everything that he has done for our family. But I can’t give him that because I’m just meant to be alone and never have any friends,family,husband,children or even love.
love sucks ass. it is like the earth its here to eat you up and spit you out and leave you to rot like an apple and watch you turn brown and the soften become weak and then have someone come and pick at you until there is nothing left to feel or see and nothing to want need or cry for nothing left but the ground that holds you right were you were left to die. No matter how many times your got up you end up in the same spot again and again until finally your realize that God wants you and he wants to be your savior and he will heal you of this brokenness and make you strong and healthy and new again and make you a better person all over again. He will heal your wounds and guide you in the right path if you let him we will never fail you or forsake you and he will always want to make you whole and new again and he will always bring good your way but how you use it and how you mess it up will destroy you forever because we are human and no matter how many times we mess up or we just don’t want to admit that we make mistakes and mess up but we do and no matter how many times we do it will never change.